Losing Game - Maximillian

Singing these Manchester City blues Drown my liver in a pool of liquor, it's true Monetize my pain, and my hurt Commodify my frame, do your work I modify my name, just the first To fit in this lil' game Yeah It's hard chilling with niggas who only Talk about bitches and never 'bout business Misogynistic 'til they sisters get involved Then it's vengeance in the name of feminism of course Bragging 'bout who they piped down when high school fool What about right now? Ouu you wanna fight clown? Want me to put the mic down And leave me Mike Brown, light brown soaked in the concrete Just beyond God's reach So tell me what's next? Boys in blue paint the town red from all the bloodshed Still interrogating myself Tell me how do crocodile tears fall from dry wells You can't confuse fedora boy for a suspect The pen was the murder weapon The muse, "The Weeping Woman" Still tryna paint Picasso circa 1937, it's true I'm just paying my dues and my dudes You out preeing my moves I'm focused on my own two and keep singing these Manchester City blues Drown my liver in a pool of liquor it's true Monetize my pain, and my hurt Commodify my frame, do your work I modify my name, just the first To fit in this lil' game You wanna know why I'm happy? I'm still alive, nigga 'Bout four, five times, I should've died, nigga You see the pain when you look into my eyes Made it to 39, I guess my grandmama lied She said I'd never make it to see 21 My brother didn't, listen, this is where the Henny come 17, he was everything I wanted to be I watched the devil take his life right in front of me I feel strong, but I'm breaking down underneath In Compton, you ain't gotta be the Klan to lay up under sheets A dead body, that's somethin' to see How I end up by myself after travelin' the world a hundred deep? I watched Bobby get shot in his face I seen Lil Kurt intestines fall straight out his waist These eyes, these skies Where the fuck do niggas go when we die? Walking through the grocery store the other day I ran into Taneisha, she was happy to see my face Let me tell you 'bout fate We was 16, tenth grade, murder was the case She was datin' Chico, we was at my grandmama place It was me, Taneisha, Chico, Dan, and Lil Trey We was drinkin', smokin', I fell asleep I woke up 'cause I heard Taneisha screamin', so I peeped In the bathroom door, Chico was just watchin' her While Dan and Lil Trey was climbin' on top of her So I went and grabbed my pop's gun And this the part of the story where you grow some nuts if you ain't got none I cocked that bitch, then I popped one Everybody froze, then the nigga Trey dropped, son I shot my own homie in the grapes, I just couldn't let T get raped Singing these Manchester City blues Drown my liver in a pool of liquor, it's true

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Menurutmu berapa lama lagi kau kan mencintaiku? Menurutmu apa yang bisa terjadi dalam sewindu Bukan apa hanya bersiap tak ada yang tahu Aku takut Tak pernah ada yang lama menungguku sejak dulu Yang terjadi sebelumnya semua orang takut padaku Memang tidak mudah mencintai diri ini Namun aku berjanji akan mereda seperti semestinya Menurutmu apa benar saat ini kau masih mencintaiku? Menurutmu apa yang bisa dicinta dari diriku? Bukan apa hanya bersiap tak ada yang tahu Aku takut Tak pernah ada yang lama menungguku sejak dulu Yang terjadi sebelumnya semua orang takut padaku Panggil aku perempuan gila Hantu berkepala keji membunuh kasihnya Penuh ganggu di dalam jiwanya Sambil penuh cinta diam-diam berusaha Selalu tahu akan ditinggalkan Namun demi Tuhan Aku berusaha Memang tidak mudah mencintai diri ini Namun aku berjanji akan mereda seperti semestinya Memang tidak mudah mencintai diri ini Namun aku berjanji akan mereda seperti semestinya

Say you're there when I feel helpless If that's true, why don't you help me? It's my fault, I know I'm selfish Stand alone, my soul is jealous It wants love, but I reject it Trade my joy for my protection Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back Say you're here, but I don't feel it Give me peace, but then you steal it Watch them laugh at all my secrets Scream and yell, but I feel speechless Ask for help, you call it weakness Lied and promised me my freedom Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet?

I've been so busy, ignoring, and hiding About what my heart actually say Stay awake while I'm drowning on my thoughts Sometimes a happiness is just a happiness I've never been enjoyin' my serenity Even if I've got a lot of company That makes me happy Soul try to figure it out From where I've been escapin' Running to end all the sin Get away from the pressure Wondering to get a love that is so pure Gotta have to always make sure That I'm not just somebody's pleasure I always pretending and lying Like I'm used to feel empty 'Cause all I got is unhappy Happiness, can't I get happiness? I've never been enjoyin' my serenity Even if I've got a lot of company That makes me happy Soul try to figure it out From where I've been escapin' Running to end all the sin Get away from the pressure Wondering to get a love that is so pure Gotta have to always make sure That I'm not just somebody's pleasure, oh-ho-oo It was in a blink of an eye Find a way how to say goodbye I've got to take me away From all sadness Stitch all my wounds, confess all the sins And took all my insecure When will I got the love that is so pure? Gotta have to always make sure That I'm not just somebody's pleasure Gotta have Gotta have to always make sure That I'm not just somebody's pleasure

낭비하지 마 네 시간은 은행 서둘러서 정리해 걔는 real bad 받아주면 안돼 No you better trust me 답답해서 그래 저번에도 봤지만 너 없을 때 걘 여기저기에 눈빛을 뿌리네 아주 눈부시게 Honestly 우리 사이에 He's been totally lying, yeah 내 생일 파티에 너만 못 온 그날 혜진이가 엄청 혼났던 그날 지원이가 여친이랑 헤어진 그날 걔는 언제나 네가 없이 그날 너무 멋있는 옷을 입고 그날 Heard him say We can go wherever you like Baby say the words and I'm down All I need is you on my side We can go whenever you like Now where are you? Mmhmm What's your ETA? What's your ETA? Mmhmm What's your ETA? What's your ETA? Mmhmm What's your ETA? What's your ETA? I'll be there right now, lose that boy on her arm 아파 맘이 네가 걔 못 잊을 때 내 말 믿어 you deserve better than that 내가 도와줄게 걔는 그냥 playin' Boys be always lying, yeah 내 생일 파티에 너만 못 온 그날 혜진이가 엄청 혼났던 그날 지원이가 여친이랑 헤어진 그날 걔는 언제나 네가 없이 그날 너무 멋있는 옷을 입고 그날 Heard him say We can go wherever you like Baby say the words and I'm down All I need is you on my side We can go wherever you like Now where are you? Mmhmm What's your ETA? What's your ETA? Mmhmm What's your ETA? What's your ETA? Mmhmm What's your ETA? what's your ETA? I'll be there right now, lose that boy on her arm (Need a boy on my arm) (Need a boy on my arm) (Need a boy on my arm) (My arm, my arm) (Want a boy on my) (Want a boy on my) (Need a boy on my arm) (My arm, my arm)

Belum ada satu bulan Ku yakin masih ada sisa wangiku di bajumu Namun kau tampak baik saja Bahkan senyummu lebih lepas Sedang aku di sini hampir gila Kita tak temukan jalan Sepakat akhiri setelah beribu debat panjang Namun kau tampak baik saja Bahkan senyummu lebih lepas Sedang aku di sini belum terima Bohong kah tangismu sore itu di pelukku? Nyatanya pergi ku pun tak lagi mengangganggumu Apa sudah ada kabar lain yang kau tunggu? Sudah adakah yang gantikanku? Yang khawatirkanmu setiap waktu? Yang cerita tentang apapun sampai hal-hal tak perlu? Kalau bisa jangan buru-buru, kalau bisa jangan ada dulu Baru lewat satu bulan Kemarin ulang tahunku tak ada pesan darimu Tak apa, mungkin kau lupa Atau sudah ada hati yang harus kau jaga? Sudah adakah yang gantikanku? Yang kau antar jemput setiap sabtu? Yang s'lalu ingatkan untuk pakai sabuk pengamanmu Kalau bisa jangan buru-buru Sudah adakah yang gantikanku? Yang khawatirkanmu setiap waktu Yang cerita tentang apapun sampai hal-hal tak perlu Kalau bisa jangan buru-buru, kalau bisa jangan ada dulu Huuu

Look what this girl done did to me She done cut me off from a good, good love She told me that those days were gone Gone, gone Now I'm sitting here goin' half crazy 'Cause I know she still thinks about me, too And it ain't no way in hell That I can be just friends with you And I wish we never did it And I wish we never loved it And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you And now it ain't no way we can be friends The way it felt, no fakin' it Maybe we were movin' just a little too fast But what we've done, we can't take it back Back, back Now I'm sitting here halfway crazy 'Cause I know she still thinks about me too And it ain't no way in hell That I can be just friends with you Now I'm sitting here halfway crazy 'Cause I know she still thinks about me too And it ain't no way in hell That I can be just friends with you And I wish we never did it And I wish we never loved it And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you And now it ain't no way we can be friends Ain't no tellin' what we could've been Ain't no tellin' what we could've been, no And if I knew it end like this I never would've kissed ya 'Cause I fell in love with ya We never would've kicked it Girl, now everything's different I lost my only lover and my friend That's why I wish we never did it And I wish we never loved it And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you And now it ain't no way we can be friends

Do you wanna start a cult with me? I'm not vibrating like I oughta be I need a purpose, I can't keep surfing Through this existential misery Now we gonna need some real estate But if I choose my words carefully Think I could fool you that I'm the guru Wait, how do you spell epiphany? Before the truth will set you free, it'll piss you off Before you find a place to be, you gonna lose the plot Too late to tell you now, one ear and right out the other one 'Cause all you ever do is chant the same old mantra Yeah Could I have your attention, please? It's time to tap into your tragedy Think you could use a new abuser Close your eyes and listen carefully Imagine you're stood on a beach Water gently lapping at your feet But now you sinking, what were you thinking? That's all the time we have this week Before the truth will set you free, it'll piss you off Before you find a place to be, you gonna lose the plot Too late to tell you now, one ear and right out the other one 'Cause all you ever do is chant the same old Mantra And I know this doesn't make a lot of sense But do you really wanna think all by yourself now? All I'm asking for's a little bit of faith You know it's easy to believe And I know this doesn't make a lot of sense You know you gotta work the corners of your mind now All I'm asking for's a little bit of faith You know it's easy to, so easy to believe Before the truth will set you free, it'll piss you off Before you find a place to be, you gonna lose the plot Before the truth will set you free, it'll piss you off Before you find a place to be, you gonna lose the plot Too late to tell you now, one ear and right out the other one 'Cause all you ever do is chant the same old Mantra Oh

I'm not awake I'm not alone You're right beside my face Will you love me this way? 'Cause I'm dancing with my eyes closed It's okay, it's me, babe One more time for my taste One more time for my taste See me fall from your eyes to your waist One more time for my taste Drink this wine from your sweet, from your case I feel your love, I feel your faith always You're not awake You're not alone I'm calling off that fragile case Oh, baby Are you dancing with your eyes closed? It's okay, it's me, babe One more time for my taste I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down One more time for my taste See me fall from your eyes to your waist One more time for my taste Drink this wine from your sweet, from your case I feel your love, I feel your faith always See me fall from your eyes to your waist I feel your love, I feel your faith always One more time for my taste One more time for my... One more time for my... One more time for my... One more time for my home I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down I'll lick your wounds I'll lay you down I'll lay you down

I hate that S-Class Benz that you're so damn proud of You hate my truck 'cause you can't climb out of it And I'll admit it girl, I said it and I meant it Yeah, I loved you for a minute, but we dance sure different It's been a week since you went and hit the highway And made it clear that I oughta have it my way But my way looks a whole lot better With just my truck in the driveway And I hope you find you a high rollin' High rise view that you don't get in the country And I hope you find you a guy with some dollar sign eyes And a pocket full of money And it ain't that I want you to think that I hate every single little thing you do But when you say that I ain't ever gonna find nobody just like you I hope that's true You got drunk one night and told me I was white trash I was high, but I guess I wasn't high class Enough to show up with you on your own We were never gonna be two kids on a farm And I hope you find you a high rollin' High rise view that you don't get in the country And I hope you find you a guy with some dollar sign eyes And a pocket full of money And it ain't that I want you to think that I hate every single little thing you do But when you say that I ain't ever gonna find nobody just like you I hope that's true I could sit here bitter and bitchin' And wishin' things woulda gone different But that don't sound nothin' like me at all Honey, who the hell am I kiddin'? And I hope you find you a high rolling High rise view that you don't get in the country And I hope you find you a guy with some dollar sign eyes And a pocket full of money And it ain't that I want you to think that I hate every single little thing you do But when you say that I ain't ever gonna find nobody just like you I hope that's true Yeah, I hope that's true Oh, I hope that's true Oh, I hope that's true